Now I remember

Now I remember

Now I know why I don’t give my heart away
I don’t let anyone have what I try to keep safe
I remember what it felt like to be alone and how I hated it
It really hurts me to know I did it again
Every time I let someone get close to me they take a part away from me
They change me and say they care then they leave and there I am again alone and lost
It always seems so different with that part missing and I don’t know whether it’s the part of me or them not being there.
Now I remember why I know so much and why I think so much cause if only, I think then I’m safe cause then only I can hurt me and I can control that.
Today may be the day I think all of this but when is the day I’m going to act on any of it.
MAH