The Amazing Girl

The Amazing Girl


What it's like I just don't know to be the other girl to be getting all I want and when I want it?
It's odd being so moral and "good".
I just don't get it
What stops me from being them, being so forceful?
Why can't I ever pull of what they do or more like why don't I try
What's wrong with me?
Am I not good enough but that doesn't make sense cause I'm so different from what I'm told
I'm so amazing and everything else but yet even the ones who mouths that comes out of are even thrilled but the other girls and there ideas
It makes no sense to me!
I don't know if I'm suppose to stay being the different girl or become like them to see what it's like to do what I want
Damn it what keeps me back what keeps me moral.
Maybe I think too much or know too little maybe that's it
Or maybe I'm just not pretty enough to get what I want
Or maybe, maybe I should be like them and throw myself on everyone then they would like me
Is it wrong to want all this, to want to be the center of attention?
Am I just too much of a goodie goodie, but I'm not I'm not pure I'm just not them
The other girls they get what they want, they get what I want; they get what want to want them.
Damn this world, it just sucks to be the other girl to be the different girl, to be the amazing girl amazing... yeah right!


MAH

Author's note:
This is about me wanting to be in the lime light and be special.